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Welcome to my blog: a place where I can freely express myself, and give you little bits and pieces of what my world looks like.

This is just my first way of letting you all know who I am.
Ha enjoy.

Well, right now it is October 18th, 2008. I've lived 19years to see this day. Out of those 19 years, I look back and find that all of them carry memories and only some of them carry things I'd never wish to re-live. I'm sure all of you have a similar story give or take a few years.

I officially woke up this morning at about 9:00 am to the sound of my dad tapping on my door to wake me up. (He's done this off and on since I was probably 8) Then he called through the door as though he knew I was just lying in bed wrestling with the idea of getting out of my warm covers and into my cold room. "Amber, are you up?" he said. I moaned a little and managed to form the word yes. "Well, you'd better get up out soon and get some things done around here if you want to do anything today!"

So I sat up looked at the clock, turned over and snuggled deeper into my covers to catch what I always call a few more winks (but in reality always ends up being about another hour.)

Finally, I got out of bed and found some sweats and put them on to try and keep warm. Last night I had forgotten to close my window, so my room was freezing. Then I moseyed out of my room to the kitchen where my mom made me eat something.

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OK LETS CUT TO THE CHASE,

I remember thinking through all of that, "How can I make today count?" Honestly. I knew I was going to get out of bed late and then perform the Saturday ritual that has become my routine since I started college. But today was different.

"How do I make today count?" The question kept rolling around in my mind. I don't know why it was there but it was, and it frustrated me.

To start things off a little different I decided to do some laundry (instead of waiting for it to pile around my bed to where I'd have to swim to the door.). Then, I tidied up my bathroom. All of these things didn't seem to "make it count". So I looked for a few more things to do around the house, but I became more and more frustrated with the thought of being at home. It seems to me that I'm usually at home, church, or school... sometimes I'll make it to a restaurant, but even now a days it seems like I've been getting it to go mostly. 'To go' where? I always go home. There are little things that I do here and there that require me to be places, but the majority of my time is spent at home, at school, or at church.

How frustrating. It's impossible to make today count when I just go with the normal. I get in the habit of not caring what's around me, I just do my thing. Even when I go to my fiance's house, it's like I go there expecting to see his family talk about how schools going, and then try and get home by a decent time so that my mom and dad don't freak out... even though the last one's usually always a failed attempt.

So it's about 1:30 now and my agenda looks like this:

from now until 2:15 continued cleaning around the house
from 2:15-3:00 straightening my hair and getting ready to leave
3:00-3:45 driving to Luke's house
3:45-5:15 spending time with Luke's family
5:30- whenever spending time talking with Tiffany
8:00 -9:45 going to TWS's last show
9:45-10:30 driving home to Columbia City
10:45 sleep

How do I make that schedule "count"?

Idk. We'll see what God dishes up, and then I'll just blog it.

So until next time!
God Bless,

Amber